Here they are!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
New Swimsuits!
So in less than a month, I'm going to Cancun for five days for Spring Break! I leave the day after my bandiversary, it'll be a great time to celebrate. I needed some new swimsuits, and after much deliberation, chose two one-pieces from JCrew. For me, with the looseness going on in the middle, a one piece felt like it'd be more secure and comfortable. I am really excited about both of them. The black is definitely super flattering and comfortable, and although the green fabric shows a bit more, I think it's a really pretty suit and I'm comfortable enough with the progress I've made, I don't need to see perfection.
Here they are!
Here they are!
Monday, February 8, 2010
My Own Out-ing
So last week, I came out of the proverbial closet to my cousin R. Some of you might remember, as it got some pretty impassioned comments, that she had been talking to my personal trainer Julie about how she was afraid I was bulimic. We were all pretty pissed, because... Well it's bad enough when you have to get up from the table and pb. It is uncomfy, sometimes it hurts, and it an be embarrassing. Adding the stressor of someone believing you have an eating disorder is really no fun.
But I refused to tell her. I just didn't want to back down, in some weird way. I had made the choice not to tell her - mostly because although I love her, she has a pretty big mouth, and I really didn't want our whole family to know. I still worry that she'll tell. My biggest reason for not telling people pre-band was the pressure I thought it would put on - I don't want people watching what I eat and questioning why I'm losing or not losing.
I was explaining this all to Julie last week, because unfortunately, through the small town grape vine, Julie knew that R was still concerned. I finally just decided to tell her, and blurted it out before we went out for lunch. She was so happy for me, and so relieved. She said she was really worried that I did have an ED and didn't know if she should be telling someone. She worried that I would pass out on her one day, or that I'd get really sick and everyone would wonder why she, the only person who lives in the same place as me hadn't tried to stop it. Regardless, she knows and seems to understand my desire for privacy.
R was the first person I've told the band from whom I've consciously withheld the information before. I was really worried that she'd be mad I hadn't told her earlier, but in the end she was just happy I was telling her now.
xox
But I refused to tell her. I just didn't want to back down, in some weird way. I had made the choice not to tell her - mostly because although I love her, she has a pretty big mouth, and I really didn't want our whole family to know. I still worry that she'll tell. My biggest reason for not telling people pre-band was the pressure I thought it would put on - I don't want people watching what I eat and questioning why I'm losing or not losing.
I was explaining this all to Julie last week, because unfortunately, through the small town grape vine, Julie knew that R was still concerned. I finally just decided to tell her, and blurted it out before we went out for lunch. She was so happy for me, and so relieved. She said she was really worried that I did have an ED and didn't know if she should be telling someone. She worried that I would pass out on her one day, or that I'd get really sick and everyone would wonder why she, the only person who lives in the same place as me hadn't tried to stop it. Regardless, she knows and seems to understand my desire for privacy.
R was the first person I've told the band from whom I've consciously withheld the information before. I was really worried that she'd be mad I hadn't told her earlier, but in the end she was just happy I was telling her now.
xox
Friday, February 5, 2010
before and allllmost after!
I thought I'd do a lil before and during pic because I like my new outfit... Of course the before face is possibly the most hideous ever. I actually have that dress in my closet pulled for mexico - maybe I'll do a same outfit comparison!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Yummy Snack!
Hey guys!
As I'm a boring blogger, I thought I'd share a little product review with you. I bought these Yoplait Smoothies from the freezer section. I bought the Strawberry Mango Pineapple kind, and it comes with little chunks of yogurt in it. The idea is easy - just add 1 to 1.5 cups of skim milk. It comes to about 110 calories and I believe just 1 gram of fat.
I added a bit of extra milk to mine to make it more drinkable, but sometimes it's nice and more filling to have a thicker smoothie.
I'm a huge nerd, hence the umbrella... Hope you guys give these a try, they're a light yummy snack! I plan on trying to add some protein powder next time.
In defense of 87.4lbs...
Hi Everyone,
My return to regular blogging has been slow. It's not that I don't want to share what I'm feeling throughout this transition, I've just been SO busy! Between classes, work, a touch of a social life and talking to Ben, everything's really packed in.
My weight this morning was 182.6, so actually .2 up from my low two weeks ago. I'm not letting the .2 bother me. I am really hoping to be back on track with loss next week, but considering my weight was up to 189 a week ago, I'm happy.
What I am really trying to do is respect the 87.4lbs I have already lost. In less than a year, I am a completely different person, and I need to acknowledge how far I've come, rather than constantly wanting the next goal, the next set of numbers. I've come a long way, and I am trying to constantly remember that.
xox
ange
My return to regular blogging has been slow. It's not that I don't want to share what I'm feeling throughout this transition, I've just been SO busy! Between classes, work, a touch of a social life and talking to Ben, everything's really packed in.
My weight this morning was 182.6, so actually .2 up from my low two weeks ago. I'm not letting the .2 bother me. I am really hoping to be back on track with loss next week, but considering my weight was up to 189 a week ago, I'm happy.
What I am really trying to do is respect the 87.4lbs I have already lost. In less than a year, I am a completely different person, and I need to acknowledge how far I've come, rather than constantly wanting the next goal, the next set of numbers. I've come a long way, and I am trying to constantly remember that.
xox
ange
Friday, January 29, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Taking a little breather...
Hey Guys,
Just wanted to let you know I'm going to be taking a teensy blog breather. I'm sure I'll be back by next week at the latest. Right now, despite my best efforts I'm struggling with choices and have seen my weight shoot up. I don't want to get into details, because really, I need to just chill out about it. I know I'll lose the weight I've re-gained by making the right choices, but if I focus too much on the numbers I just get too anxious and upset. I look forward to catching up when I'm feeling like a better bandster. I need to be more of a whole person to do this, and not have my band/weight-loss be my biggest focus in life.
xox
ange
Just wanted to let you know I'm going to be taking a teensy blog breather. I'm sure I'll be back by next week at the latest. Right now, despite my best efforts I'm struggling with choices and have seen my weight shoot up. I don't want to get into details, because really, I need to just chill out about it. I know I'll lose the weight I've re-gained by making the right choices, but if I focus too much on the numbers I just get too anxious and upset. I look forward to catching up when I'm feeling like a better bandster. I need to be more of a whole person to do this, and not have my band/weight-loss be my biggest focus in life.
xox
ange
Monday, January 25, 2010
Some Questions and Answers
Questions and Answers again!
1. What time did you get up this morning? Set the alarm for 7:15, got out of bed around 7:50... no shower for me this morning, just some hair straightening
2. How do you like your steak? Medium Rare
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Avatar in 3D at home in Toronto.
4. What is your favorite TV show? I am pretty stoked that I'm not watching aaaaas much tv as i once did - I try not to miss The Biggest Loser though! Other than that, i love Food Network and HGTV shows like House Hunters and Property Virgins.
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? I love where I live now... Whistler would be pretty amazing too.
6. What did you have for breakfast? Two leftover chicken nuggets.
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Thai
8. What foods do you dislike? Mushrooms, Indian gives me a bellyache
9. Favorite place to eat? Hen of the Wood in Waterbury, VT.
10. Favorite dressing? Homemade Honey Mustard Vinaigrette
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? Grey Subaru Forester
12. What are your favorite clothes? Good jeans (my Fidelities or Citizens), boots, a soft tank and a pretty sweater is pretty much my uniform... Love dressing up too though!
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Back to Australia, for sure, South-East Asia, I'd love to get to Africa... Anywhere!
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? Full
15. Where would you want to retire? I'd love to have a place either in Stowe or in Muskoka (cottage country in Ontario) and then a place somewhere warm.
16. Favorite time of day? Whenever I get home
17. Where were you born? Toronto, Ontario, Canada
18. What is your favorite sport to watch? Love the Olympics, X-Games, Hockey...
19. Bird watcher? Nope
20. Are you a morning person or a night person? I can handle mornings, but I'm great at staying up laaaate.
21. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? According to facebook... I'm in a relationship. Alas it is a long distance one, and he reads this blog, so I'm not gonna give him the satisfaction of saying much more... But I've found me a great guy. Hi Ben!
22. What did you want to be when you were little? A pre-school or kindergarten teacher. Or FAMOUS.
23. What is your best childhood memory? We took a trip to Disney World when i was four and I have this memory of an ice-cream sundae bar by a crazy pool with caves and slides that was SO cool!
24. Are you a cat or dog person? Dogs more, but I like kitties too.
25. Are you married? No.
26. Always wear your seat belt? I'm pretty consistent about that!
27. Been in a car accident? Luckily never.
28. Any pet peeves? Lateness!
29. Favorite Pizza Toppings? What's pizza? Haha. Pepperoni is yum, so is buffalo chicken pizza with blue cheese mmm.
30. Favorite Flower? I love sunflowers...
31. Favorite ice cream? Plain chocolate, I'm boring.
32. Favorite fast food restaurant? McDonalds cheeseburgers were my fav, but buns just don't happen anymore. I'm pretty much off of fast food unless I'm traveling.
33. How many times did you fail your driver's test? Once for my G2, once for my G.
34. From whom did you get your last email? Last real email from Zoe, last actual one from JCrew.
35. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? If it has to be just one store, then Barney's
36. Do anything spontaneous lately? Decided to go to Mexico for Spring Break!
37. Broccoli? Gives me gas. Heh.
38. What was your favorite vacation? Ooh... A toss-up between my European Joyride Contiki tour and my Aussie/NZ adventure!
39. Last person you went out to dinner with? My friends Nick and Claudia
40. What are you listening to right now? people discussing how the power just went out in the building I'm at on campus
41. What is your favorite color? Purple.
42. How many tattoos do you have? none
43. Coffee drinker? Yes please!
1. What time did you get up this morning? Set the alarm for 7:15, got out of bed around 7:50... no shower for me this morning, just some hair straightening
2. How do you like your steak? Medium Rare
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Avatar in 3D at home in Toronto.
4. What is your favorite TV show? I am pretty stoked that I'm not watching aaaaas much tv as i once did - I try not to miss The Biggest Loser though! Other than that, i love Food Network and HGTV shows like House Hunters and Property Virgins.
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? I love where I live now... Whistler would be pretty amazing too.
6. What did you have for breakfast? Two leftover chicken nuggets.
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Thai
8. What foods do you dislike? Mushrooms, Indian gives me a bellyache
9. Favorite place to eat? Hen of the Wood in Waterbury, VT.
10. Favorite dressing? Homemade Honey Mustard Vinaigrette
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? Grey Subaru Forester
12. What are your favorite clothes? Good jeans (my Fidelities or Citizens), boots, a soft tank and a pretty sweater is pretty much my uniform... Love dressing up too though!
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Back to Australia, for sure, South-East Asia, I'd love to get to Africa... Anywhere!
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? Full
15. Where would you want to retire? I'd love to have a place either in Stowe or in Muskoka (cottage country in Ontario) and then a place somewhere warm.
16. Favorite time of day? Whenever I get home
17. Where were you born? Toronto, Ontario, Canada
18. What is your favorite sport to watch? Love the Olympics, X-Games, Hockey...
19. Bird watcher? Nope
20. Are you a morning person or a night person? I can handle mornings, but I'm great at staying up laaaate.
21. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? According to facebook... I'm in a relationship. Alas it is a long distance one, and he reads this blog, so I'm not gonna give him the satisfaction of saying much more... But I've found me a great guy. Hi Ben!
22. What did you want to be when you were little? A pre-school or kindergarten teacher. Or FAMOUS.
23. What is your best childhood memory? We took a trip to Disney World when i was four and I have this memory of an ice-cream sundae bar by a crazy pool with caves and slides that was SO cool!
24. Are you a cat or dog person? Dogs more, but I like kitties too.
25. Are you married? No.
26. Always wear your seat belt? I'm pretty consistent about that!
27. Been in a car accident? Luckily never.
28. Any pet peeves? Lateness!
29. Favorite Pizza Toppings? What's pizza? Haha. Pepperoni is yum, so is buffalo chicken pizza with blue cheese mmm.
30. Favorite Flower? I love sunflowers...
31. Favorite ice cream? Plain chocolate, I'm boring.
32. Favorite fast food restaurant? McDonalds cheeseburgers were my fav, but buns just don't happen anymore. I'm pretty much off of fast food unless I'm traveling.
33. How many times did you fail your driver's test? Once for my G2, once for my G.
34. From whom did you get your last email? Last real email from Zoe, last actual one from JCrew.
35. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? If it has to be just one store, then Barney's
36. Do anything spontaneous lately? Decided to go to Mexico for Spring Break!
37. Broccoli? Gives me gas. Heh.
38. What was your favorite vacation? Ooh... A toss-up between my European Joyride Contiki tour and my Aussie/NZ adventure!
39. Last person you went out to dinner with? My friends Nick and Claudia
40. What are you listening to right now? people discussing how the power just went out in the building I'm at on campus
41. What is your favorite color? Purple.
42. How many tattoos do you have? none
43. Coffee drinker? Yes please!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Can't Nothing Hold Me Down
Woo! Workout-Wednesday is over, and it was such a success! I went to Phusia this morning, danced my ass off, Julie then put me on the elliptical on strength for half an hour, then half an hour of lifting... Then went back at six for another hour of dancing! Here's my little dance outfit... 
I get SO hot in that class! The shorts were a lil short for comfort during stretching, haha, but it kept me cooler! I am feeling so good about this Challenge, how well you have all responded. Aunt P is visiting right now and normally my weight might be up a little, but with all these workouts I feel like I'll bust through the bloat!
I get SO hot in that class! The shorts were a lil short for comfort during stretching, haha, but it kept me cooler! I am feeling so good about this Challenge, how well you have all responded. Aunt P is visiting right now and normally my weight might be up a little, but with all these workouts I feel like I'll bust through the bloat!
Challenge Check-In/Weigh-in Wednesday
Hey everyone! Happy Hump Day!
Today is my day off of classes, and my super hardcore workout day. Headed to the gym in an hour for an hour of Phusia, followed by an hour of personal training, and then, as my challenge bonus, back to the gym at 6 for another hour of shaking my butt in Phusia. If you're wondering what Phusia is and how it's different than Zumba, fear-not, I have some excitement in store for all of you, so keep your eyes peeled!
How are all of you doing on the challenge? I'm so impressed and proud of you all, so many have taken it on! Remember this is just about pushing yourself that little bit further- I just want you to feel some endorphins!!
My weight this morning is 182.4, down 1.6 from last week. Yesterday my scale said 181.2 for a minute, which was exciting and all, but it wasn't Wednesday so it doesn't count. 1.6 in a week is perfect to me, especially since it's really 1.6 since Sunday!
xoxox
ange
Today is my day off of classes, and my super hardcore workout day. Headed to the gym in an hour for an hour of Phusia, followed by an hour of personal training, and then, as my challenge bonus, back to the gym at 6 for another hour of shaking my butt in Phusia. If you're wondering what Phusia is and how it's different than Zumba, fear-not, I have some excitement in store for all of you, so keep your eyes peeled!
How are all of you doing on the challenge? I'm so impressed and proud of you all, so many have taken it on! Remember this is just about pushing yourself that little bit further- I just want you to feel some endorphins!!
My weight this morning is 182.4, down 1.6 from last week. Yesterday my scale said 181.2 for a minute, which was exciting and all, but it wasn't Wednesday so it doesn't count. 1.6 in a week is perfect to me, especially since it's really 1.6 since Sunday!
xoxox
ange
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