My blogging family has been incredibly generous so far, and Camille, Joey, Stephanie and Alexis have all made awesome contributions and I so appreciate them. I'm more than 60% of the way to my goal of raising $500.00 to help end Africa's Longest Running War.


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Please, if you can, make a donation. My TV interview never made it online, but as I said in it, once you learn about the atrocities being committed by the LRA, you cannot forget them. Once you learn about how Invisible Children is helping, you cannot ignore the problem, you have to help too. Please.

I have been on this journey for well over two years now. Today I was compelled to go to the beginning. To see how excited I was. How far I've come. How insightful I was. Here is the link to my first month's worth of entries.

One highlight:

The non scale goals. All of these have been more than accomplished.

• to be able to wrap myself up in a normal sized towel
• to be able to comfortably bring the tray-table down on a plane
• to be able to go into a store and try things on based on what I like, not just what fits
• to ski all day with my family without getting tired... I kinda pretend I just don't like it now :(
• to enjoy workouts
• I used to love going to the gym, I'd go 3 or 4 days a week and get so so into it. I know I just need to get the routine back in motion
• to be able to run. I've never been able to do that.

Or my entry on Feb 13, 2009:

Who will I be...

Feb 13

I've been thinking a lot lately of how much of my identity is wrapped up in my weight. I try not to let it define me, and I know I'm lucky that I have the... chutzpah (a yiddish word) to go out and wear my bathing suit on the beach, even when I don't love how my body looks in it.

But I wonder how I'll feel, not being the fattest person (or at least girl) in the room. Excuse the pun, but it's a huge part of who I am, the funny fat girl, the loud fat girl, the fat girl who occasionally hooked up with the cute guys - though God forbid those boys actually date me.

It'll be weird to be normal... I bet I'll have a harder time with the change than the world around me.

I was right about this too. I have changed quite a bit. I have a certain confidence now that I didn't before. I speak just as much still, but I don't speak quite as loud. And I've hooked up with a lot more cute guys, and most of them have dated me.

xo
Ange