There are certain foods that I should never have in my home. Not because they're bad or high-fat or whatever - they're foods I just can't ignore. My home typically has about a dozen pints of Ben and Jerry's in the freezer, and I can ignore them. This weekend, however, a lot of trigger foods were in my house. Nacho Cheese Doritos, Oreos, Potato Chips and Dip, and plain chocolate ice-cream. I have eaten ridiculous quantities of all of them. Is it coincidence that these are all slider foods? Of course not. Before surgery, I could have given a shit about most of these foods, I chose to binge on more solid meal type foods. But now... The compulsion is still there. The foods are mostly gone - in my belly or finally thrown out with the garbage bags taken into the garage.
Why were these foods in my house? Cause I had a party on Friday night, and... I could say that I don't want to restrict my friends choices. But really? Cause I was looking for an excuse.
These foods are gone, and soon the 5lb gain my scale showed tonight will be too. This has obviously been rough on me, but it is a solid reminder that the band is only such a small part of what we're dealing with, and that although I may look totally healthy to a stranger, on the inside I am still struggling with the problems of my former fat self.
Mini-Goals and Statistics
Highest Weight; January 2009: 270
Surgery Weigh; March 4th: 255
Tummy Tuck December 15, 2010!
Current Weight: 150s
Current BMI: healthy!
Mini Goal 2: 230 - reached June 12th. - 10lbs/6 weeks.
Mini Goal 3: 220 - reached July 18th. - 10lbs/5 weeks.
Mini Goal 4: 210 - reached September 2nd. 10lbs/7 weeks.
Mini Goal 5: 199 - reached October 19, 10lbs/11 weeks
Mini Goal 6: 189 - reached December 18, 10lbs/9 weeks
Mini Goal 7: 179 - reached February 23, 10lbs/9.5weeks
100 lbs down!!