Today my scale was very very mean to me. Very mean. There are a number of possible reasons - I drank a bit this weekend, I ate not very well including a shit-load of diet soda which I know can bloat me. Around 5 last night I also realized I couldn't remember the last time I drank water outside of the gym and my pee was fluorescent, so I began a water torture regimen. I drank six bottles - 3 liters or 101 fluid oz of water and lemme tell you it's so clear I wonder if it really came out. So I know I'm probably not done peeing that out too... And most of all... I didn't eat enough the week before. I was going to either have to keep that behavior up or accept that I was not going to maintain. Although I would have liked to keep losing at the rate I was, because the numbers made me so happy, I also felt kind of panicked the entire time, panicked that I was out of control, panicked that I wouldn't be able to eat more when I wanted to, panicked that I was going to pass out during a workout. I don't understand this band of mine sometimes, but I accept that it's taken me on the right journey, and if I have to re-lose these four or five pounds so be it.
I mean it. I accept that this morning the scale said 173.4. This number will not last - I won't let it.
Happy Monday, everyone, here's to getting back on track!
Mini-Goals and Statistics
Highest Weight; January 2009: 270
Surgery Weigh; March 4th: 255
Tummy Tuck December 15, 2010!
Current Weight: 150s
Current BMI: healthy!
Mini Goal 2: 230 - reached June 12th. - 10lbs/6 weeks.
Mini Goal 3: 220 - reached July 18th. - 10lbs/5 weeks.
Mini Goal 4: 210 - reached September 2nd. 10lbs/7 weeks.
Mini Goal 5: 199 - reached October 19, 10lbs/11 weeks
Mini Goal 6: 189 - reached December 18, 10lbs/9 weeks
Mini Goal 7: 179 - reached February 23, 10lbs/9.5weeks
100 lbs down!!