So I've been thinking a lot to how I react to my weight loss. I think, probably because of how close I am to a normal weight, that how slow it is really gives me a chance to consider each and every pound. When you get this "small" you kind of have to accept a slow down - I cut myself down to 1400 cals a day 80lbs ago - obviously it's not going to cut it now, nor does even 1200. I just have to accept the slow down, and look forward to my post-Mexico fill.
So I find myself looking at the scale every morning, these days floating between 178 and 181, and trying to decide what those numbers mean to me. Obviously from a comparative place, they're awesome - about 90lbs down. What's different now is they're getting to be ok numbers even objectively. At 5'8, I'm a pretty standard overweight now with a BMI of 27, smack dab in the middle between normal and obese. I really struggle to celebrate this though, to realize how good it is. And maybe that's a good thing - maybe it is not yet the time to be celebrating, because it could also mean settling.
I am pushing towards a goal I have no clue about. I know my healthy BMI range is anywhere between 122 to 164.5, and I want to get solidly in the middle of there I think. I would like to see myself under 150 one day, although I'm no longer at a point where time limits seem to make sense, other than by my second bandiversary - 35lbs in a year sounds reasonable right?
How do you guys fight the inner-debate between celebrating and settling, if you do have one?
Mini-Goals and Statistics
Highest Weight; January 2009: 270
Surgery Weigh; March 4th: 255
Tummy Tuck December 15, 2010!
Current Weight: 150s
Current BMI: healthy!
Mini Goal 2: 230 - reached June 12th. - 10lbs/6 weeks.
Mini Goal 3: 220 - reached July 18th. - 10lbs/5 weeks.
Mini Goal 4: 210 - reached September 2nd. 10lbs/7 weeks.
Mini Goal 5: 199 - reached October 19, 10lbs/11 weeks
Mini Goal 6: 189 - reached December 18, 10lbs/9 weeks
Mini Goal 7: 179 - reached February 23, 10lbs/9.5weeks
100 lbs down!!