So I weighed 170 this morning. HOLY FUCKING SHIT. 170.
That's 17lbs up from my lowest weight, a little less than 3 months ago. I just can't believe that this is happening. Except I can. I don't have proper restriction, I can't work-out as hard as I want.
I hate this. I hate feeling this way. I am trying to fix it - despite the fact that I cannot afford it at all, I'm going home this weekend. I'm getting a fill on Tuesday. I'm gonna make it a big one. I need my band back.
It's so weird - I don't feel like... I don't like hate how I look this time around. I just hate feeling so lost and out of control.
Mini-Goals and Statistics
Highest Weight; January 2009: 270
Surgery Weigh; March 4th: 255
Tummy Tuck December 15, 2010!
Current Weight: 150s
Current BMI: healthy!
Mini Goal 2: 230 - reached June 12th. - 10lbs/6 weeks.
Mini Goal 3: 220 - reached July 18th. - 10lbs/5 weeks.
Mini Goal 4: 210 - reached September 2nd. 10lbs/7 weeks.
Mini Goal 5: 199 - reached October 19, 10lbs/11 weeks
Mini Goal 6: 189 - reached December 18, 10lbs/9 weeks
Mini Goal 7: 179 - reached February 23, 10lbs/9.5weeks
100 lbs down!!