Sorry I haven't been updating as much lately. Lately I find that I just don't have a ton going on that seems blog-worthy. I continue to weigh somewhere around 160. I continue to work out. I continue to eat pretty well but not perfectly. Life is very comfortable at this weight and place, and I could happily stay here as a goal weight. I am looking to push to get a bit more weight off, only because I know that daily ice-cream isn't necessary, and although my workouts have been good they'll be more consistent once I'm back in Vermont. So maybe another 10ish lbs, but really, no pressure... And for now, not much effort.
WHICH IS WEIRD. I'm really not making any major efforts to lose weight right now. Have any of ever even uttered the phrase? Had the thought cross your mind? I am one of those people who was overweight my entire life, I have never been at a healthy/happy weight before, at least not since before puberty. It's a nice feeling, but I've noticed it has made a difference socially.
Everyone is used to me being on a diet. Even when I was my biggest and never actually losing, I'd be willing to chat Weight Watchers or carbs or protein - I had tried it all before. But I think I am sick of it. Maybe because our journey as bandsters is different than anyone else's, because I still want to hear your stories. But I'm sick of watching girls complain about their weight and eat diet food. I hate diet food. I hate seeing someone eat four skinny cows instead of one real ice cream cone. I was at a friend's cottage this week. She is a girl who has gained and lost a great deal of weight over the years, and finds herself about 40-50lbs up on her 5'2 frame in the past year or so. I was always bigger than her. She is now clearly bigger than me. It's a shift in dynamic for sure, but in a way, I don't know that she fully sees it. She kept questioning my food choices and wanting to buy processed fake food, and I had to finally say to her "I'm not eating with weight-loss in mind. I work out almost every day. My body is burning calories, you make your choices, I'll make mine." I survived the mid-week weekend with her, but did find myself almost overeating to just prove to her how now controlled by my diet I was - erghhhh/head-desk!
Has anyone else experienced this - the boredom with diet culture or the friend who struggles to see us as someone other than the "fat-friend?"
Happy Fourth to all my friends in America, and Happy Pride to everyone who celebrates it!
Mini-Goals and Statistics
Highest Weight; January 2009: 270
Surgery Weigh; March 4th: 255
Tummy Tuck December 15, 2010!
Current Weight: 150s
Current BMI: healthy!
Mini Goal 2: 230 - reached June 12th. - 10lbs/6 weeks.
Mini Goal 3: 220 - reached July 18th. - 10lbs/5 weeks.
Mini Goal 4: 210 - reached September 2nd. 10lbs/7 weeks.
Mini Goal 5: 199 - reached October 19, 10lbs/11 weeks
Mini Goal 6: 189 - reached December 18, 10lbs/9 weeks
Mini Goal 7: 179 - reached February 23, 10lbs/9.5weeks
100 lbs down!!