I haven't posted in over a week! Not a ton to report. Life's good, back in Toronto again, had fun being back in VT. Some more recent photos have appeared on facebook, thought I'd share some. The one in jeans is interesting to me... I hate how my tummy looks pudgy, but I can see just how small I seem... A total trip. Nothing to report on the scale, the next 15lbs feel like they'll take longer than the first 100!
Luckily NSVs have abounded lately. I bought my first bikini. Nicole saw a pic, and let me tell you, the tummy certainly isn't pretty. But it still feels great to lay in my backyard in it, and let the tummy get a bit of a tan at least! And it feels so normal. I love that. It's really hard that my skin situation is as bad as it is. I get pretty down about it sometimes, going on about how unfair it is, but it's life. I'd rather have loose skin than be fat, and I'm lucky that when I'm ready to have surgery, I will be able to do it. Am I ready yet, that's the question.
Another NSV is just the feeling and comfort of knowing how much I blend in. As I try to let go of striving for this 'perfect' I start to enjoy normal, medium, regular. It's a much easier place to be.
Mini-Goals and Statistics
Highest Weight; January 2009: 270
Surgery Weigh; March 4th: 255
Tummy Tuck December 15, 2010!
Current Weight: 150s
Current BMI: healthy!
Mini Goal 2: 230 - reached June 12th. - 10lbs/6 weeks.
Mini Goal 3: 220 - reached July 18th. - 10lbs/5 weeks.
Mini Goal 4: 210 - reached September 2nd. 10lbs/7 weeks.
Mini Goal 5: 199 - reached October 19, 10lbs/11 weeks
Mini Goal 6: 189 - reached December 18, 10lbs/9 weeks
Mini Goal 7: 179 - reached February 23, 10lbs/9.5weeks
100 lbs down!!