I have been having a good week. I went to visit the college (Champlain College) I am hoping to transfer to for next semester and really liked it, and got positive feedback from my admissions counselor that has me feeling pretty hopeful. I also got a perfect 100% on my latest History test, and that sure does feel great. Know what feels not so great though? GUILT.
Specifically, guilt after eating. One would argue I should feel guilty about the actual bad choices I make - like drinking alcohol, but for some reason that really doesn't bother me at all. But lately I often feel guilty about making perfectly normal food choices. Sure I could be healthier, I could be eating nothing but lean proteins and salads, and maybe I should start, because right now, I find myself feeling quite guilty a lot of the time.
I feel like I have no right to complain that I haven't seen one-derland since Monday, and that I'm floating at 200.2 again because I haven't been perfect this week. What I need to remind myself of however, is that I'm still eating way less than I was before, and that with the portion limitations the band enforces, my calories are still super low!
I wonder if anyone else feels these feelings of guilt and self-doubt when surrounded by so many food choices?
Mini-Goals and Statistics
Highest Weight; January 2009: 270
Surgery Weigh; March 4th: 255
Tummy Tuck December 15, 2010!
Current Weight: 150s
Current BMI: healthy!
Mini Goal 2: 230 - reached June 12th. - 10lbs/6 weeks.
Mini Goal 3: 220 - reached July 18th. - 10lbs/5 weeks.
Mini Goal 4: 210 - reached September 2nd. 10lbs/7 weeks.
Mini Goal 5: 199 - reached October 19, 10lbs/11 weeks
Mini Goal 6: 189 - reached December 18, 10lbs/9 weeks
Mini Goal 7: 179 - reached February 23, 10lbs/9.5weeks
100 lbs down!!